July 3, 2026
Here we are halfway through the year and I'm not where I'd expected to be. Back in January, when I stepped away from my live monthly breathwork ceremonies, I told everyone (and myself) that it was a six-month hiatus. Come summer, I'd reopen the doors. I was so sure of that.
Well. Summer is here, and I'm not reopening them just yet.
But let me back up, because I want to tell you how I got here, and why I think it matters for whatever you might be putting off or grieving in your own life right now.
When I paused the ceremonies at the start of the year, it wasn't because I'd stopped loving them. I love our community and I love sharing breathwork with as many people as possible because I've seen how transformative it can be.
I paused simply because I needed room. New projects were knocking, and I couldn't hear them clearly with my calendar so full. So I gave myself six months, fully believing I'd pick the ceremonies back up when that timeline was done.
Then the time was done and, well… When I sat down to check in with myself, the way I do every month with The Passion Test, I knew it wasn't time yet to return to our ceremonies. My energy had gone somewhere else entirely, toward other ways I can support this community.
Seeing the truth—that it wasn't time—used to be the kind of thing I'd fight against. "I said I'd reopen them, so I should reopen them," is what my mind argues ("should" is actually one of the sneakiest little words we use against ourselves, particularly to shame.) But I've learned, sometimes the hard way, that forcing something back into my life before its ready rarely goes well. I've written before about how change takes its sweet time, and this was another humbling reminder.
My mind had a schedule. The energy had a different plan.
Fallow is a word I keep coming back to lately.
A fallow field is one a farmer leaves unplanted on purpose. Nothing is growing there, and that's exactly the point because the ground is resting and restoring itself so it can be fertile again. Because of this, no one walks past a fallow field and says it's a failure.
We rarely offer ourselves that same grace. When a project stalls, when a plan doesn't come together, when we step back from something we once poured our hearts into, we treat it like proof that we quit or fell short. But a pause and an ending are not the same thing. Some parts of our lives are meant to lie fallow for a season, while others are meant to grow fruit.
When I started looking at my life from this perspective, letting my ceremonies stay fallow a little longer stopped feeling like shame and I started feeling more trust and confidence about where the energy was taking me.
And I've noticed, when I don't try to cram everything into my life I think I "should" be doing, there's suddenly room for new growth. The space I created earlier this year has filled in ways I couldn't have planned.
As I mentioned in my last blog, we're launching a women's retreat here in Sedona this October. Embodying the Sacred Feminine is an intimate gathering I'm co-creating with two remarkable women. As I write this, only one spot remains! If a few days of breathwork and coming back to yourself is calling you, you can find the details here.
I'm also creating a Family Constellations course with Sedona Soul Adventures, which I'll share more about soon.
And…
There's a third project that arrived completely out of the blue, and the story of how it came together is the whole heart of what I'm trying to say.
A few years ago, I partnered with another facilitator to build a breathwork facilitator training in her area. We worked on it for months, putting so much care and effort into it because we both believed in the offering. For a handful of reasons, it didn't come together, so we let it go.
Even though it didn't come to fruition, I didn't walk away resentful about the time I'd spent, and neither did she. My time is precious; hers is too. If either of us had decided that whole stretch was wasted, we could've let it curdle into blame, and our connection would've ended there.
Instead, we stayed close. About a year later, that friendship turned into a new collaboration.
We're creating a podcast together! And it feels so aligned for both of us. All those months of "failed" work were the fallow ground it grew from. We already knew how to collaborate and we already trusted each other, and the result is something refreshing that will offer so much to our communities.
In a previous blog, this is what I meant about the threads we never see coming. Sometimes, we hit what looks like a wall, and only later do we realize it was a resting place where greater things would grow.
I'll keep this part short, because it's still taking shape, but I'm too excited not to share!
The podcast is centered around a theme of multi-generational discussion. I'm in my sixties, my collaborator is in her forties, my daughter in her twenties will join us now and then, and I have friends in their eighties I'd love to bring in too. The idea is to look at the same questions from every stage of a woman's life.
I would genuinely love your input on this! If there's a topic you wish women across generations would talk about honestly, one that would've helped the younger you or the you of right now, send me a message and tell me. Your feedback will help shape where we begin.
There's one more thing I didn't expect from this quieter season: I've fallen back in love with my own breathwork.
As my summer slows down, I've been doing a shorter breathwork nearly every day, and it has re-inspired me completely. I built my breathwork membership for other people, and lately it's been carrying me. I keep finishing these shorter sessions feeling lighter and more like myself.
I've also been growing the library of shorter recordings, because I've noticed that many members reach for the shorter sessions first. Ten minutes feels doable on a full day whereas an hour can sometimes be too overwhelming.
Also, shorter sessions can be every bit as powerful as long ones, and living inside my own membership these past weeks has proven it to me all over again.
If you've been curious about the Inspired Breath Breathwork Membership but haven't quite taken the plunge, you can see everything it includes right here. No pressure at all. It'll be there when your energy says yes :)
So here we are in July, in a month I thought would look completely different.
I'm okay with that. Better than okay, actually. Because I've lived through enough of these seasons now to know that the timing my mind wants isn't always the right timing for the flow of energy.
If you're sitting with something that has yet to blossom, a dream on the back burner, a plan that stalled, I want to gently offer you this.
Taking a pause isn't the end. It doesn't mean your dream failed because sometimes it's just the fallow season.
So plow the fields, get some rest, prepare for what's coming. Your job isn't to force anything. Your job is to keep showing up for yourself and to trust that when the energy returns, you'll know.
If you'd like some company in figuring out what's actually alive in you right now, I'd love that. Book a FREE 15-minute discovery session with me, and we'll listen together for what your energy is pointing toward.
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